Thursday, October 4, 2007

Are there any other single Dad's...

Training for an iron distance event?  I got hooked on multi sport races (Triathlons) a few years ago.  I ran a sprint race just to show me I could do it.  At the time an 800 yd swim, 18 mile bike and 3 mile run seemed like a marathon.  

As a kid I loved - and I mean loved the feeling of zooming along on my stingray. It was my first taste of freedom being able to go where I wanted when I wanted.  I've never lost my love of riding the bike.  As a pubescent I swam on a division 2 team and hoped some of that muscle memory might have stuck with me. 

On race day, 500 yards into my 800 yard feat (too far from shore to touch the bottom and to close to call for help - yes I would rather drown than be embarrassed)  I thought I was going to die.  Swimming turned out to be a lot more work than I remembered it being.  The run wasn't much better.  You've seen people run who look relaxed and efficient.  Quiet and swift. Right?  Me?  Well, lets just say wounded asthmatic water buffalo. 

Since then I've improved a little.  Not because I'm one of those genetically gifted types.  It's because I've worked my _ss off.   I set the bar high, committed to my goals and created the circumstances of my success.   I did the work.  Next month on November 11th I run my 1st 1/2 iron man.  A 70.3 mile test of individual fitness and endurance.  I'll be racing in a division of over 40 men, Dad's, businessmen, amateur athletes just like me over 1.4 mi swim, 56 mile bike and finally a 1/2 marathon (13.1 miles).  I'm actually excited, I'm not going to survive the distance I'm going to race.

Silverman Full & Half Distance Triathlon

When people ask me or my training buddies why we do it, we respond with cliche platitudes;  I want to test myself and push my limits, It's always been a dream of mine, I missed getting into the Olympics because of ____.  When the real answer is too obvious; we're insane.  Utterly around the bend bonkers. A certifiable sandwich short of a picnic danger to ourselves. 

Funny thing is, we love it.  We make sacrifices to train and compete. Clean diets, rigorous schedules, 2 a day work outs, early wake ups and long long days.  After all, each of us has a career, a family, children, spouses, community commitments etc.  We just layer on this challenge of training our bodies and minds to surpass every obstacle and barrier to achieve something that  prompts others to cringe at the very thought.  

There is a great quote that recently came from  a lecture by Randy Pausch a Carnegie-Mellon professor and father of 3 dying of pancreatic cancer.  He said "brick walls exist for a reason.  They exist so we can show how much we really want something"

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Pretty powerful words coming from a Father who won't live to see his children grow up. A man who is being denied half of his life expectancy. I hear him telling me; live your life to the fullest, pursue your dreams and don't let anyone tell you that you can't.  The obstacles you encounter reaching your goals are their to help you reach them, not stop you from reaching them.  That strikes a chord with me, it gives me courage.  I give thanks for Randy, I pray that his children will carry his voice.

That's a message I want my kids to hear, to learn, to embody.  It is therefore, an ethos I must embody.  Not in my easy chair holding court in the living room.  I do it getting in a long run at 430am on Wednesday (before the kids are awake) and in the pool at 630pm Tuesday & Thursday (after the kids are done with their swim team practice)  I do it when I share with my kids how nervous I am before a race or how pleased I am at a 3% improvement in my 10K or a 1% increase in their 50 yd freestyle.  I do it when I take that extra moment of time to gently recall with my 7 yr old his triumph over constructing complete sentences or my 8 yr old on her improvements in reading.  I do it by living it.  I teach it by be-ing it. 

It's not about how to achieve your dreams it's about how to live your life.

Dying Professor's Last Lecture

Brick walls exist to help us show how much we want something.

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

Something strange has happened

I have to tell you as a single parent of 3 kids I get a chuckle out of hearing single parents of 1 kid complain about their hectic life.  And I'm sure that the single parent of 6 kids (you know the one - she's in her 2nd year of law school) finds my laments equally funny.  It's all perspective right?

I'm forever experimenting with various time & responsibility configurations.  Trying to achieve the elusive balance of staying pretty much caught up and having time to play, bond and communicate and still get 6 or 7 hrs of sleep.  Hey, I aim high.

In this most recent iteration of how to create more hours in the day I've gone really far afield.

I turned off the TV. 

It began innocently enough. I have long known that clicking on the TV actually creates an electron vacuum which sucks all but the most basic neurological functions from the human body. This artificial paralysis is even more pronounced in our offspring.  I often marvel at how a young mind can devise a multi part plan, move and stack two rooms of furniture then scale the teetering structure to reach the top shelf of the kitchen cupboard just to retrieve the stale dinner mint left over from last thanksgiving.  But under the influence of television this same creative genius is utterly incapable of even the slightest voluntary actions. 

We started by leaving the TV off for the entire 1st week of school.  It was a challenge.  Overcoming the habitual pattern of clicking on the idiot box for background noise took some effort.  But, with 3 kids  trying to talk and do homework and pass information the extra voices of the TV proved to be a diabolical influence when we returned to our old ways in the 2nd week of school.  It occurred to me that our home had increased levels of harmony and attentiveness when the TV was NOT on.  Could this be possible?                   

We continued the experiment in week 3.  Here it became evident that the strain was taking a toll.  I repeatedly found each of my children in their bedrooms clutching a TV remote, heads lolled to one side in near catatonia watching Sponge Bob and Patrick with the volume nearly off.  Confiscating the remote was sufficient at first.  Only in week 4 did they stoop to using their fingers to work the control buttons.  At this point I was forced to employee tough love.  I removed the TV's from their rooms.  The temptation was simply too great for their little minds.  The pitiful wails could be heard for blocks.  But, I had no choice.  It was for my own good.   

We had to find a substitute.  Cold turkey was a cruel master.  Here parental inspiration struck me like a bolt of lightning.  "Read" I said.  Their little faces went blank as they scoured the memory neurons for the meaning of the word. 

Books?  they said in unison.  "Yes please" I answered. It was fitful at first.  Now a few weeks into the routine, reading is what they do for the precious hour or so we have unscheduled each evening.  

The big payoff (if I had to pick one) is peace.  We have quietitude and thinkability about the house.  For the last few nights they've taken turns reading to me.  I manage to nod off listening to the little voices go on about Lewis & Clark and McQueen the car.  I know for some parents this is all boring, "like duh wake up and smell the literacy" but for me this has been an epiphany of aha. 

I've won a victory.  Taken back another portion of our lives previously occupied by popular culture.  I feel liberated. 

Do you have a similar experience?  Tell us about it.